Saturday, December 29, 2012

What is true love?

It's the one that lasts.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Find someone...

...who will not like/love you because you're beautiful or attractive..
...who respects you and respects women..
...who doesn't talk bad about you to his friends..
...who is not easily drawn by a pretty face and a sexy body..
...who listens to you..
...who knows you very well..
...whom you know very well..
...who is proud and contented to have you..
...who doesn't make promises he can't keep..
...who keeps his promises..
...who is trustworthy..
...who sincerely loves you with all his heart..
...who is faithful to you even when you're apart..
...who will never lie to you..
...who will never influence you to do bad things..
...who will protect you against all odds..
...who will stand by you no matter what..
...who is honest with you..

Thursday, December 6, 2012

I Remember It This Way

I've been working in the ICU exactly a month and a day today and in that course of time, we've had two cardiac arrested patients.

This one today, however, was a very special one. Every time I recall it in my head, I just relive the moment and feel the exact same way I felt at that time.

My patient is suffering from chronic kidney disease and she is also a diabetic. She is basically bedridden and unable to move by herself, and talk even, but during her first few days she would usually respond with a nod or by slightly moving her head sideways. Her husband comes to see her everyday, wash her, clean her up, do passive rom exercises, and talk to her. Everyday without fail. They don't have a child, and the husband has actually decided to put up their house for sale in order to pay for the treatment and needs of his wife. He stays in the hospital all the time, and checks on her every once in a while, sometimes even before the visiting hours start. Although we would tell him to wait until the specified time, of course.

Just by looking at his devotion to her, you could see how much he cares about her. She is his life.

Today, when the bad news was delivered I witnessed that heartbreaking moment. And everything was in slow motion as I watched the husband run through the door towards the bed of his wife. Finally, he moved his head close to her head and broke down in silent tears. I watched his heart broken into tiny little pieces, and he stayed there for a while. I don't know how long exactly, but time stood still. And I was crushed. I was crushed for him, the one who survived. For what will become of him? The love of his life - his life - is now gone.

I've seen too many scenes like this in the movies, but none quite as touching. This is reality. This is true love. This is loss.

Life is strange, indeed, but I believe.....God is in control.

Le Secret

Will play this again...."kanami!!!!" That's "amazing" where I'm from. ^^,


Beautiful....every single time I hear it....

Monday, December 3, 2012

By The Gentle Waters


Often when there's so much we wanted to say,
is the time we're unable to say anything.
And we end up writing down words that seem to only convey half of what we wish,
though in reality the meanings run deeper than the words spoken out.

I wonder how many people can read the emotions of the writer,
exactly the way it was felt.
Or perhaps that is impossible.
Empathy is never really 100% for most of the time.
And they are written down to convey something,
yet somehow the effort is futile..
For we always see things as we are, not as they as with words.

And the beauty of the prose lies in its mystery.
For when people think they have grasped it,
is when they actually don't.

Or maybe they do.

As far as I'm concerned,
My thoughts are in pen..yet somehow, it is incomplete..
For my thoughts run deeper than the things I could ever say..
And everything remains a mystery..

Oh well..

At least I write.

Thursday, November 29, 2012


Breaking a woman's heart is deeper than we realize. It destroys her outlook on love, her future relationships, and her peace within herself.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

All Things Considered

Nothing comes easy in this world.
And the more you hate it, the more it happens.
The answer is missing.

If only people live up to their words,
And things are every way..

If only..

If only..

And the future is unclear..




The easiest thing to do is still the hardest.


Monday, October 29, 2012

Passing Through

Everything is a chasing after the wind..said Solomon.
And it's true.
Even love.
For self, for others..for someone.

There comes a point in time
When everything is different
And we no longer know the ones we did
And we wonder..
Yet somehow,
Nothing could be done..
We just keep wondering..

But someday, we will have the answers.

Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus.

Sunday, October 28, 2012


Through all uncertainties, we have hope..
Knowing everything is under control,
And that God has predestined us at something..
With someone..Probably..

And we endure..
Knowing..and hoping..things will get better anyhow..
They always do..
Because God is good..

And that's the only REAL hope we have.
God is always good.
Others may fail us.
We even fail ourselves,
But He never does.

"O, Lord I stand amazed
at the wonder of Your deeds,
yet a greater wonder brings me to my knees.

Lord, I praise You because of who You are,
Not for all the mighty things that You have done;
Lord, I worship You because of who You are.
You're all the reason that I need to voice my praise,
Because of who You are."

Thursday, October 25, 2012

I Love The Smell of The Rain

It is no bed of roses, indeed.
Consistency is always disrupted by something out of nowhere.
And then everything changes.
Why or how, we'll never know.
Some words are just better left unsaid, I guess.
But it costs peace of mind.
And the change grows day after day.
Until what has been will only remain what has been.
And maybe new things will grow out of the change.
For better, or for worse?

Life is complicated.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012


Coz I've been gone for a while..
I actually have this secret blog (to get you thinking)..

I didn't miss writing much, because that's what I do for work,
but I've missed carefree much!


I haven't been into fashion weeks anymore, as you can see.
It's actually a hard time keeping up with all that,
coz there's just too many designers, and too many clothes..
you gotta love them all..*sigh*
The minute you get done with your last Fall-Winter post,
here comes Spring-Summer to get you started all over again.
It's a never ending is..
and I chose not to let it mess me up..
but I kinda miss it though...



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